I’ve always been afraid of the dark.
For no real reason.
I’m just a kid, all I do is play and laugh and cry when mom doesn’t give me what I want
But when the sun goes down I feel myself dim. And I don’t know why
Maybe it’s because of the long looming shadows the kerosene lantern makes
Maybe it’s because everyone’s eyes hold flames
Maybe it’s because men become faceless silhouettes
Or maybe it’s just because I can’t play outside anymore and what kind of world is that if I can’t play.
It’s just me and mama here. Papa left us.
I was just a little thing when he did. I don’t remember him
To me he looks like a man in the night. Black and faceless.
But it’s just as well, good riddance!
He used to make mama cry
He used to make me cry
Whenever the sun went down
Mama and I are happy now
Both in the day and when the sun is down
She makes me learn new things from her books
She calls me to the kitchen as she cooks
She sings and hums as she sweeps
She let’s me play all day
Until the sun goes down
Today I did something strange
I’ll never ever do it again
I shall never be the same
In the morning I was outside with my friends
My girl friends and my boy friends
Then we started to argue about something
My boy friends were talking and they said lies
They said that the streets were freer at night
They said their mamas let them play outside
They said that one day they played in the stream at night
They said they saw people do things
Strange things like dancing in a vertical position
And the dance placed one on person on top of the other
They said they saw it once and they wanted to try
But it had to be done in pairs
But they were three
So they needed me
All my girl friends they said no
They said their mamas would say no
They said that the night was a scary place
That why did it have to be at night that the dance took place
But I am a dare devil.
And I only have mama and no pa
And I know how to make mama sleep very deeper
Maybe I could go and see
But I’ve always been afraid of the dark.
And for no real reason it seems.
Because my boy friends said there’s nothing to it
They said that I would get used to it
The longer you stay out when the sun goes down
The clearer the night becomes
So today I did something strange
And I will never ever do it again
And I shall never be the same
Because I did do the strange night vertical dance
And those boys are no more my friends
And it was not fun
And it hurt in places I’ve never hurt on
And I’ll always be afraid of the dark
Because of the long looming shadows
Because men’s eyes hold flames
Because men become faceless
Because men become beasts
When the sun goes down